POEM : "Torn Apart"

I still think about you every night and day,
Wondering how you could have let this slip away.
How could I have been so blind?
What the hell was on my mind?

Seems like you just took me for granted,
But why do I still believe you’re all I ever wanted?
Why do I still have these feelings for you?
Why do my tears still quietly flow like the night’s endless dew?

Too late, now what can I do?
The memories they stir and they brew.
I try so hard to forget,
But in the end it only adds to my regrets.

I try to rationalize it in my mind.
But why are the answers so hard to find?
I try to convince myself that I hate you,
But deep down I know that isn’t true.

My mind is in such a mess:
Why did you have to take away my happiness?
Why did you have to do this to me?
Were all the lies really necessary?

Now look at my heart…
Bleeding and all torn apart.
How I wish I could undo this pain,
But I can’t… so I’ll never love again.

I wish I could go back in time
And undo the pain that is mine.
… The wish to have never met or known you,
Just to avoid what I am going through.

But I can’t undo any of it,
It’s now a Reality I have to learn to live with.
I guess what hurts the most for me,
Is that you never gave “US” the chance to be.

© 2004 Radica