POEM : "Heartache"

My heart remembers what I long to forget:
Pain, suffering and so many regrets.
But there’s nothing more that I can do:
I have already fallen for you.

Why does it seem so hard?
Why did things turn out so bad?
Why couldn’t you give me just one chance?
Why couldn’t we have just one dance?

I sit and think about the how’s and why’s,
And wonder why tears still stream from my eyes.
Why do I still love you this way?
Why do I still think about you each and every day?

I’ve sat and pondered about my Fate,
I’m waiting for my self-directed anger to abate.
Sometimes I just don’t know if you were ever real,
Or whether I dreamed you to Life and gave you my heart to steal.

But it really doesn’t matter what I say or do;
Nothing can ever replace what I felt, and still feel for you.
All I need now is to hear from you –
Whether anything you said you felt was ever true…

Hopefully one day when it is time,
I will be able to reclaim what is mine.
But for now, please just give me back my heart –
Because without it, my healing can have no start.

© 2004 Radica